I been thinking a lot after I dropped
Friends what comes next?
I spent the past couple nights
Scrolling through old texts
And I notice
I don't think songs could ever get a Rolex
I used to do this like it meant Nothing, it didn't
I started taking off a little bit, I admit
It
I started acting differently cause I
Thought I'd never fit in
And I thought that was bad in reality
It isn't
I don't wanna be the next Lil Nas X
I don't wanna make a Travis Scott
Project
I just wanna make a song that feels Like me
It feels like CG
Feels like I'm the beat
And if you got a problem better voice It
Cause I slowly feel I'm out of choices
Got a feeling and I can't ignore it
They ask me what you meaning?
Listen up
I been fucking scheming
My mental at the ceiling
If you think I've reached my peak you Better wake up cause you dreaming
Cause I'm in my prime
Think I'm bouta shine
You lie awake a night
Wonder when my passion dies
Will I really turn out good alright?
I push the metal to your dome
If you come attack my home
I'll make sure that you never getting Old
Guess a mother bouta loose a son
Ain't nobody expect that I'm the one
To get my hands dirty to get it done
Started acting ruthless cause I gotta
Keep my family safe now I'm Thinking that's my mantra
Wish I didn't need meds
To get an ounce happiness
Or even to get up and out of bed
I think of biting lead
But I stopped a couple months ago
Started going with the flow
Look at what that did to me though
Started blowing all my fucking C Notes
On tops of bottles just to get the Musical juice again
And I started distancing from my Friends
And now I'm all alone
More isolated than ever, but I'm in My zone
And the beats I'm making?
It'll leave you shaking
No facade when I say that the new Shit gonna get you quaking
Lost a couple friends
Then a couple more
I upset my homies
Then upset em more
I don't mean to do it
It just kinda happens
PTSD
Fresh within me
Making me relapsing
I don't wanna go back
Tired of the combat
But Imma go new flesh
If we being honest
You could never stop it
You could never top it
CG you'll lose and I'll come out on Top and
I don't wanna go back
Tired of the combat
But Imma go new flesh
If we being honest
You could never stop it
You could never top it
CG you'll lose and I'll come out on Top and
Number going up
Number going up
Gonna fill it up
Gonna fill it up
I dont think I'll ever learn my lesson
Never was amazing at the testing
Going on an infinite
Infinite
Intimate
With this shit
Intellect
Been a mess
Yea I'm never getting off Imma be Stuck here
Never gonna change yea I guess that I'm stuck here
Number going up
Number going up
Gonna fill it up
Gonna fill it up
I dont think I'll ever learn my lesson
Never was amazing at the testing
Going on an infinite
Infinite
Intimate
With this shit
Intellect
Been a mess
Yea I'm never getting off Imma be Stucm here
Never gonna change yea I guess that I'm stuck here