Dear diary This battle's on the verge of emergency Call in a chemical warfare attack ♪ Tempting fate with the crisis that my vices will orchestrate Cold sweats as my bold pupils dilate I could die from the weight of it all Or make it through another close call Here's a note to myself, "back to the wall The higher you get, girl, the further you fall" Here's a note to myself, "alone in my pain How close can you come to the edge before you walk away?" ♪ Through blackened veins the evil in the needle bleeds into my brain And sells me on the sense of a fool's escape I could die from the weight of it all Or make it through another close call Here's a note to myself, "back to the wall The higher you get, girl, the further you fall" Here's a note to myself, "alone in my pain How close can you come to the edge before you walk away?" Before you walk away But I just need one more taste, one more taste Scars earned from searching for solutions So desperate just to feel Sold on self-prescribed pollution, just distorting what was real And so it goes in the throes of what I can't overcome Painfully numb Dear diary This battle's on the verge of emergency Here's a note to myself, "back to the wall The higher you get, girl, the further you fall" Here's a note to myself, "alone in my pain How close can you come to the edge before you walk away?" Before you walk away Before you walk away