This struggles Enough to get carried away Drown out in the oceans Im locked here inside my head Try and float away To ease the pain But my anchors Keeping me at bay I feel like there's nothing left And there's a gun to my head It's driving me crazy I'll hide away and pretend that I'm dead And let you all win I love playing victim So tired and ashamed Of what I became Tuck my tail between my legs Walk away Give up on everythang Hang my head in Shame I gotta break I'm gonna break free Dig myself a grave Ill hide away Bury all the pain deep inside Im living a lie After a lie after a lie