Abeyance is the introduction to Act II of the record
Um, sort of in this
I-I guess I'm talking a little bit about the belief or the feeling
That I've always had
Um, it's a, it's a pretty famous quote by a philosopher
I can't remember his name
Um, but the quote is, um
"That God does not exist, I cannot deny
That my whole being cries out for a God I cannot forget"
Which is a feeling that I felt many times in my life
That though I personally cannot my -my
Uh, I guess personality or who I am cannot allow
I cannot allow myself to subscribe to a religious idea
Um, I wish that I could, and I often wish that I could
In moments like, you know my grandfather died recently
In those moments I wish more than anything that
I could believe that he was standing on clouds in heaven
And have that sort of beautiful journey that they speak of in church
As my the uh, the part of me that's sort of overly analytical
I guess will not allow me to believe in that
Or to openly believe in that as much as I'd like to
And so I think that in terms of the story it plays in that
The characters wish that they could believe that
They could fully defeat fear, but they have that lingering notion
That there's always something that's going to affect
And you can't a- you can't beat fears entirely
You're never going to live free of those things
Regardless of how free you feel
It is always something that'll affect you
And so, um, this is sort of an introduction to the second half of record
Where the characters start to feel a bit more, um, I guess
Uh, they start to feel a little bit more introspective
And start, you will get how things have gone negatively
Or how things have affected them
And how they can sort of rise out of that
So that's what that is