Trying not to get my hopes up 'Cause I'm bound to get let down again And lately I've been feeling so stuck Wonder when I'll be the one who moves ahead Anxiety gets the best of me Between the pills and therapy I'm spent I hope that I can find some clarity Before I start to fall in this descent So if you were to up and leave I would understand Wish I wasn't so afraid Of making one little mistake I don't expect My mind is rotted and decayed From all the days that I spent in this disconnect The life you see inside your screens Is not the same behind the scenes In fact (I'm such a nervous wreck with nothing left but selfishness) The way that I have been perceived is Something that I'm starting to reject (But it's starting to conquer me) If you were to up and leave I would understand I'm not begging for sympathy Just need you to know the kind of person that I am We're drowning in the silence There's no point to me confiding As I watch you leave and make up an excuse This conversation was one-sided But I don't really mind it As you walk away and fade out of view Trying not to get my hopes up 'Cause I'm bound to get let down again And lately I've been feeling so stuck Wonder when I'll be the one who moves ahead