Can't even write songs I am way too sad to even try to vocalize my thoughts Wanna destroy my feelings Every single damn time that I get so caught up in the healing 'Cause it's never lasting 'Cause I'm stuck never lasting You could tell me a million ways That things could get better for me I'll give you a billion fucking excuses For why I just keep on regressing Back to the person I was when I was 12 So shell shocked by the complexities Of the world, and my mind And all the rest that is still left to be defined Most days I'm just too scared to be alive I push everyone away Single-handedly destroying my reputation Through the stupid things I say That I can't take back I am permanently damaged from the results of my past And it's everlasting 'Cause I'm stuck never lasting I could live a trillion years And still feel like shit every day And I could live a quadrillion more And still never find a fucking way To satisfy the ones that I love, to which I wish I could say Please forgive me now Please forgive me now Just give me a break, I'm just trying to make it Through every minute of the day Before I sell this broken soul on eBay No reserve