Wake up, what am I to do today How do I fill the hours of a life Where I don't feel capable of doing anything at all Wake up, how am I to feel today How do I escape the agonizing narratives That kept me up til sunrise I stare into the eyes of a distant hope and it says Hold On I cant control the world, I can only control if I hold on Everything, it hurts right now, but I need to, I need to I need to hold on Wake up, I am useless That is all you want from me, to dissolve completely into Nothingness, nothing at all And I know that this is no better Breaking rules, attempts to feel less scattered Opposite directions take me I never learned to learn without failing