Here's to all the people who have helped me through this year I never could have thanked you all for that You put up with my flaws and all my pessimistic thoughts And this is my attempt to say thank you I don't think I'm quite as sad as I was before I've only got myself to blame for that I couldn't see where I was or what I was working towards But I've come to accept that side of life I walked alone For as far as I could let myself go Now I fall dethroned I crack a smile, but the joy is not my own Here's to all the people that I always just ignored I'm sorry that I couldn't say hello Though you came in constant crowds, as I worried about myself I couldn't see that you were all alone I think about Jesus and the things they say He did I think I'd like to live some more like that But I'm consumed with growing doubt, a need for hope, and getting out My love could never go as deep as that I walked alone For as far as I could let myself go Now I fall dethroned I crack a smile, but the joy is not my own I'm getting better slowly But I am still losing my mind And I can't get rid of the old me In spite of everything I've tired But I never bothered you I never asked for you Here's to everybody that is worried about me I'm doing fine, as far as I can tell I still want to die before I turn 25 But I guess we'll have to see if time prevails 'Cause thirty years sounds bold But God, it seems so old I guess we'll have to see where my road goes