I feel like I'm trying to kill a ghost But he keeps blocking every shot I throw It's always there when I need it most And even when I don't It was gone so long I thought that it was dead But it was always there in my head I just don't look in its direction For fear of seeing myself Cause if I look too close, I start to lose focus When one door closes, another one opens And I pull myself together as best as I can You probably think that I'm trying to kill myself Cause I don't give a damn about my health But underneath it all, I'm scared as hell Of what comes after this And if you look too close, I start to unravel The stitches that hold me together don't matter It all comes loose if you pull a single thread And if you say too much, the words lose their weight What I thought was profound was just marks on a page And it all came loose when I pulled a single thread It all came loose when I pulled a single thread