I've never told anyone and I'm terrified But if I don't count to six right now I might die I don't know what's wrong with me But it wants to ruin my life Ruin my life Ruin my life I just spend my days thinking Ruminating I know that this can't be healthy But it's my safety Hide my face and hide away I don't want you to see I don't believe in god And I don't believe in anything But my brain keeps telling me that everything means everything Nothing's fucking real But I keep doing it anyway Because I might die if I don't shut my lights off correctly I don't wanna die I don't wanna die I don't wanna die I don't wanna die I don't wanna die I don't wanna die I don't wanna die I don't wanna die I don't wanna die I don't wanna die I don't wanna die