I don't know why
It feel like every day I find another way to fuck up my life
I don't know how
One day I gotta stop turning back and start looking around
It's that feeling when I know I'm bouta go for the first time
I just didn't think that I'd be goin' out my damn mind
Folks unaware no more calling on a lifeline
This is not a drill this is happening in real life
Think for myself look I know I'd never take to
Outside influence when I already made rules
Then I start to wonder why I'm singing to the same tune
Make me give in yes I'll take a couple say two
Paranoid the second I am out for good
Running through the different ways this could be the end
Not a question of whether I can but should
I might be the only one who see what's really there
Wait, now it's all coming back
Life is in reverse and I'm feeling what I had
Wait, this is yet another lapse
Life is in reverse and I'm feeling what I had
Please I know I'm wrong
But I can't fix it now
I don't know why
It feel like every day I find another way to mess up my life
I don't know how
One day I gotta stop turning back and start looking around
I think I went too far this time
I always ignore the signs
I guess I should apologize
I'm never gonna be in line
Things becoming complicated
That's why I always try to keep my mind so elevated
Maybe I'm spending a little too much time isolated
But all these hoes they stay keepin' my ego so inflated
What am I thinkin'
I'm fallin' deeper I'm sinkin'
I swear the problems gettin' bigger
All I do is keep shrinking
But now that pill lets me pretend
That every day is the weekend
Until I'm all alone and
Then the process just keeps repeatin'
Do not fall for me I can not be trusted
I'm not used to this guess I'm still adjusting
The slope is gettin' pretty steep
I hope I can stay on my feet
The sun up as I fall asleep
Maybe I'll wake up and it was all a dream
I don't know why
It feel like every day I find another way to fuck up my life
I don't know how
One day I gotta stop turning back and start looking around
Overall
I was never one to follow protocol
Breaking walls
Wish that we could talk without the alcohol
All in all
Show is getting over now the curtain call
Try to stall
It's a waste of time to stop the overhaul
I was gonna say
I went all the way
I didn't back away
I lived day to day
Oh and by the way
We don't even talk
I don't wanna trust
I think it's enough
I been feeling rough
I can't make it up
Isn't it amazing we could be so far?
Still I don't know how to separate
Clearing my mind is becoming so hard
I carry your weight every step I take
Wait, now it's all coming back
Life is in reverse and I'm feeling what I had
This is yet another lapse
Life is in reverse and I'm feeling what I had
Please I know I'm wrong
But I can't fix it now
I don't know why
It feel like every day I find another way to mess up my life
I don't know how
One day I gotta stop turning back and start looking around