I'm scared you hate me but I know it's not as much as I hate myself
Been suffering lately and the fact I got BPD doesn't help
I'm going crazy but ever since a kid that's how I felt
You can't erase me you're my favorite and I don't want no one else
If I had a time machine I'd go back to the past
And fix everything that still fucks with me
When I try to relax I dissociate from everything
I wish I had a grasp but I keep taking anything
In my head the voices laugh
Better yet, they make fun of me
If I can't call you mine
Then you'll have to be dead to me
Go head leave me behind
I knew you weren't a friend to me
I'm really not surprised
Cause I can't control my jealousy, then she said
Don't blame me blame it on your BPD
Baby don't save me I don't need you for a thing
I should've known from the start of it
Mentally I'm better I worked hard on it
I'm scared you hate me but I know it's not as much as I hate myself
Been suffering lately and the fact I got BPD doesn't help
I'm going crazy but ever since a kid that's how I felt
You can't erase me, you're my favorite and I don't want no one else
If I had a time machine I'd go back to the past
And fix everything that still fucks with me
When I try to relax I dissociate from everything
I wish I had a grasp but I keep taking anything