Wake up I shake up Yea I'm wide awake At 3am again 'cause whiskey intake It's locked in my fridge like the December cold Like ice on my neck when I walk, and it snows I can't trust a soul, got nowhere to go Still getting higher when I'm feeling low Tell me about that, about that How can I get up and fight back? Every word I wish I could say And I break down when nothing goes my way And I still hold back every single tear I wish I could Cry them out, I'm sorry love Every word I wish I could say And I break down when nothing goes my way And I still hold back every single tear I wish I could Cry them out, I'm sorry love This girl from PA said she wanna be mine I got friends in LA and they party all night I still really hope that their health don't decline And shoutout to Skele, I hope he's alright Last time we talked you were pissed at me And I'm coming clean, I'm falling at the seams Say RIP To Lucky and Goldie they watching me James and Gage too, hope they're proud of me She's still pissed at me The fuck did I do love? I just wanna know and I just wanna talk cause You know you're a part of me And I know that its campy We never saw closure I haven't seen clovers Guess I'm getting older Every word I wish I could say And I break down when nothing goes my way And I still hold back every single tear I wish I could Cry them out, I'm sorry love Every word I wish I could say And I break down when nothing goes my way And I still hold back every single tear I wish I could Cry them out, I'm sorry love