You said no, yeah, I don't wanna see you
Well, that's fair, yeah, I get that I am being used
Cut up, fucked up on the inside
I'm scared to death 'cause I thought you'd be right by my side
Black eyes staring straight through my skin
I can see the transparency within
It's like I wasn't even there, no, no, no
Sometimes the pictures that you took showed me I could disappear
I fucked up wading down the hospital isle
You said forget about me, I begged to stay for a while
So wrap your arms, wrap your arms just around me
Turn to stone, lose control, push away, and be alone
I know you hoped I suffered, I know you're with another
'Cause hating me was your favourite pastime
I know you break and stutter, your mind's fucked take another
Another pill just to help you forget my name
My bones are now disordered, kick down the glass, now cornered
Crawling out on my stomach just to feel more pain
Dialled up, you never answered, you left me here abandoned
Could it be this isn't love?
You said no, yeah, I don't wanna see you
Well, that's fair, yeah, I get that I am being used
Cut up, fucked up on the inside
I'm scared to death 'cause I thought you'd be right by my side
Hospital beds, I see my mother give a smile
She'll hold my hand as I push myself into denial
You could've been there, even as a fucking friend
I hate myself 'cause I couldn't hate you when you left
Broken knuckles hit the wall, pain, it shudders through my core
It's not the type of pain that relates to my hand being broke
Drive me to the hospital, screaming at me all along
Sorry I'm not perfect, I'm not worth it, I just really try my best
Not to be too much, too fucked up
It's hard to cope when you say it's just all in my head
'Cause our love's a messy masterpiece, we're both fucked up and on our knees
Begging for a drug just to take away the fucking pain
I know you hoped I suffered, I know you're with another
'Cause hating me was your favourite pastime
I know you break and stutter, your mind's fucked take another
Another pill just to help you forget my name
My bones are now disordered, kick down the glass, now cornered
Crawling out on my stomach just to feel more pain
Dialled up, you never answered, you left me here abandoned
Could it be this isn't love?
You said no, yeah, I don't wanna see you
Well, that's fair, yeah, I get that I am being used
Cut up, fucked up on the inside
I'm scared to death 'cause I thought you'd be right by my side
Hospital beds, I see my mother give a smile
She'll hold my hand as I push myself into denial
You could've been there, even as a fucking friend
I hate myself 'cause I couldn't hate you when you left
You said no, yeah, I don't wanna see you
Well, that's fair, yeah, I get that I am being used
Cut up, fucked up on the inside
I'm scared to death 'cause I thought you'd be right by my side
Hospital beds, I see my mother give a smile
She'll hold my hand as I push myself into denial
You could've been there, even as a fucking friend
I hate myself 'cause I couldn't hate you when you left