I flew away
Studying abroad my excuse to escape the past
Opening my eyes in a new land and feeling joy flutter over my heart
Like the brushing kiss of a phantom
The glancing hand of a passerby rushing through this crowded train station
I was on my way to my first date in months
My thoughts racing like scenery from passing train cars
Everything moving so fast it almost seemed backwards
And everyone around me too preoccupied in their own business to notice it
I was anxious to step away from Star, but still excited to finally walk towards the future
Just waiting on the train
Waiting on, waiting on, waiting on, waiting on you
Waiting on, waiting on, waiting on, waiting on you
Waiting on, waiting on, waiting on, waiting on you
Waiting on, waiting on, waiting on
Talia
Kissed me
Now I'm missing
Heartbeats, thinking
That it's nothing
She said that we should only be friends
But also kissed me on the cheek so maybe it all depends
I'm overthinking it
Overcome with ambivalence
Took my arm then we split and dipped
Now I'm waiting alone her kiss
Still lingers atop my brain
Well is this sane
I'm just waiting on the train, back home
Waiting on, waiting on, waiting on, waiting on you
Waiting on, waiting on, waiting on, waiting on you
Waiting on, waiting on, waiting on, waiting on you
Waiting on, waiting on, waiting on
Now we're back
Two weeks passed
We've been cuddling, huddled in covers inside of my flat
And I like her
She still claims not to like me
But we've been doing more than cuddling on the high key
Waiting to ride the train
I ask her why all the games
She tells me she isn't ready to fall in love just to leave
Makes sense, I won't try to be with her again
But she stops takes my hand, pulls me in
And kisses me
I spent all this time trying to wait to leave
Couldn't see the signs, right in front of me
Caught up in my feelings and getting lost in my memories
Living way too cautiously scared of their similarities
It's strange
Terrified of new pain
But hopeful that I can finally start to feel life once again
I'm ready for a new change
We're going out on our date
The rumbling goes away
And now we're getting on the train