I've fallen in love with a phantom
I wake up in the morning with a chill alerting me of her presence
Desperate to stare into those empty green eyes long enough for the woman I love to Sprout out your face like a weed
I'm a wishful thinker
Wishing so fervently that the constellations we plotted futures on, would spare just one Shooting star for me to wish you back here
Surely if I could learn to live without miss sunshine, Orion could do without a single extra Light in the sky
I mean what's a single star to the center of my solar system
What's another 1 in 8 billion to my one and only
In a moment I figured the truth
I was laying in bed next to you
And you just had this look in your eyes
Like you couldn't see me or the room
And so slowly I came to realize, that the woman with me wasn't you
I spent days trying to share love with her
But there's things that she just couldn't do
When she's here
I feel fear force itself into the place your hand should be
My heart racing at missteps and worrying for landmines
When you're with me I don't feel love
I don't feel joy
When you're here I feel like the woman I fell in love with is somewhere else
And I'm laying with an imposter
When you're here, I do a lot of wishing that you were here
Is that really so far fetched
Is it wrong for me to want to hold you
To talk to you like I used to
Is it wrong for me to feel this way
When you're here
If anything is clear to me now
It's that when you're here
This new you
I can't be