I settled into myself nicely now
Settled up and I'll see myself out
I've got a fast car that I'd like to wreck
A weight on my mind breaking my neck
I get nervous, I get pissed off
I can't seem to take the pressure off
You took me out in the glory of my weakness
I took a chance for a moment to be reckless
A couple weeks and it starts sinking in
A couple months and I start to lose it
My head is down, my mind's not where I left it
My body's on the ground still waiting to be lifted
I heard the calls but you know I couldn't listen
I shut it off when you tell me what I'm missing
You won't understand I had it all mapped out
I'm pouring drinks but everyone's passed out
I want a simple change to rearrange and make it okay
I want to close my eyes and make the nightmares all go away
I want to feel what I believe like I'm living it
I want to practice like I preach so I'm not full of shit
Too much thinking in the night sweats from a dying fire
My mind is burning, consumed by my mad desires
Learnt to love, what it takes, and what I take from it
A balanced heart gives me the solid ground to understand it
Use it to remedy and make me more self-aware
How to contain what drives me and why to care
I took some time but you know I think I've had enough
There's a time and place to grind it out and shut up
I've settled into myself nicely now
I've settled up and I'll see myself out