I watch my friends be happy again
Be so in love yeah it never ends oh
When will my time ever come
Feeling so hopeless I do it again
There's no one around me I want more than a friend
I don't have luck when it comes to men
Feeling like there's no one around me in this little town
I'm searching through everyone there's not a sound
It's so hard being different there's no one like me
Yeah the boys that I want never want me for me no
So tell me what do I do
Gotta sit all alone in solitude
Feeling so fucking jealous I don't mean to be rude
But tell me why I always gotta fuck it up
I rush too much
Deprived of touch
I need some love
Fucked it up for myself again
I'm sick and tired of being so patient
You know it hurts me when I'm sitting here and waiting
Cause even when I find it I just fuck it up
For myself again
They say the best love
Comes when you're not looking but I won't budge
I just keep on pushing and I can't stop
I just want all the attention that I never get
It seems like when I'm actively searching for it
I'm always attracting the worst that's for me oh
I always do it to myself again
Feeling like there's no one around me in this little town
I'm searching through everyone there's not a sound
It's so hard being different there's no one like me
Yeah the boys that I want never want me for me no
So tell me what do I do
Gotta sit all alone in solitude
Feeling so fucking jealous I don't mean to be rude
But tell me why I always gotta fuck it up
I rush too much
Deprived of touch
I need some love
Fucked it up for myself again
I'm sick and tired of being so patient
You know it hurts me when I'm sitting here and waiting
Cause even when I find it I just fuck it up
For myself again
But I
Let myself get hurt all again
I'm always losing all in the end
It's what I get for wanting a friend
And you
Want me to go come and please you
Just for me to leave being all used
I go home feeling so damn confused
But tell me why I always gotta fuck it up
I fuck it up
I fuck it up