Still tryna heal from things I hesitate to speak about
Can't trust nobody in this life, so I just keep 'em out
Wish I could tell you 'bout the things that I be thinking 'bout
This cuts way deeper than a knife so I just bleed it out
Yeah
See I was down for too long, I had to face my fears
I had to get out on my own, I had no space for tears
I thought the end was near
The real ones really came along, the fake ones disappeared
I learned that people fuck with you when it's beneficial
And people only stick with you when they start to miss you
I had to cut them all off, I had to dead the issue
Bitch, I don't want no fucking lovin' if it's artifical
I just had to keep it simple
Got me screaming "fuck love!" when you cross my mind
Wish I could tell you that I hate you but I'd cross the line
I almost took my fucking life November 29
God picked me up and said "it's not your time"
I always think about that fucking night
You taught me I don't need nobody and that's fucking right
I broke you first, you broke me worst, I had to pay the price
But I guess this is what it is, I mean, so fuck it, right?
Still tryna heal from things I hesitate to speak about
Can't trust nobody in this life, so I just keep 'em out
Wish I could tell you 'bout the things that I be thinking 'bout
This cuts way deeper than a knife so I just bleed it out
In every single song I make and every time I rap
I spill my heart out every time like it's a heart attack
I know I'll never be the same, I never wanted that
I pray to God for better days cause I just want 'em back
Man, I just want 'em back
God
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
Courage to change the things I can
And wisdom to know the difference
Amen