Sometimes I wish I went to college And only ever dreamed about the shit that I started Getting sick of my apartment Something's wrong with my head But I just don't know what to call it Telling myself it's fine It's what you dreamed of The city of angels where devils meet up I don't leave my room It's hard to speak up When everyone around me thinks I'm no one I wanna dream on I told my mom that I would make it Gotta keep on I'm super paranoid I wanna make 'em all proud But I keep falling down I never had a choice I wanna make 'em scream it back to me And hear the noise Testing my patience Can't even get out of my bed I'm fucking breaking Don't know what day it is I'd give it all to give it up I'm way too anxious I'm never breathing right I gotta drink until I'm spinning Just to sleep at night I need him by my side I get so scared to be alone That I start shaking I wish I went to college I wish I had a nine to five I can't see the finish line I do this every time