Honestly, i'm exhausted,
Why is my society so toxic
My sobriety affecting me like I was standin in a mosh pit
I just think i'm runnin out of options
Everyone the opposite
Hoping they don't see me as a college kid, cos
Most of them don't even know what knowledge is
I'm rippin up my scholarships
I just wanna be an artist now
And I know they'll prolly hate me say i'm watered down
I don't got any trophies i'm stuck on the shelf
Everyday is my battle i'm only fighting myself
If I was ever deployed, I think i'd write to myself
They say they want me to fail, i'm not receiving no help
I'm not wanted, haunted by every comment
I promise i'm being honest they steady working for honor
I never could be a starter they breakin through all my armor
And maybe i'm just a joke, I should've been workin harder
Tell me Okay, it
Won't stop the pain, life
Continues this way, and
I am drowning, so
Call me lonely
Call me messed up
I'm just tired of this world
And i'm tired of myself
Right now I don't know about it
Tryna think of any way that I can go about it
Lotta thoughts in my mind, now it's overcrowded
Take a sec and a breath to control the balance
Every minute addin up on a stopwatch
Not enough time feel like everybody bossed up
I cannot shoot, time is up on a shot glock
Wishin I could swish, but i'm still gettin crossed up
Say you ballin out, friendship fallin out
Always in some trouble no-one hears me when i'm callin out
Hopin music gonna change my life
People leavin me
I know that i can make this right.
Tell me Okay, it
Won't stop the pain, life
Continues this way, and
I am drowning, so
Call me lonely
Call me messed up
I'm just tired of this world
And i'm tired of myself