It's taken two different therapists
To tell me what to do to help me wrestle with
The bar I set for love and what I do with it
I want it so bad, but I'm bad at it
Used to love a Friday out in Malibu
And now I never go because I think of you
Never met to ruin it but you always do
I can't get away, get away from you
Oh and somewhere
There's a balance in self care
Wanting someone to be there
Is it normal to be scared
'Cause I should hate you
Probably do, but I don't want to
All I do is forgive you
Is it normal that I do
Everyone I love is worried
All you ever done is hurt me
And it hurts me to love you
Is it normal that I do
Gotten so good at recovery
Reading all the books and doing everything
Even give advice like I know anything
But I'm so afraid to heal that it's breaking me
Oh and somewhere
There's a balance in self care
Wanting someone to be there
Is it normal to be scared
'Cause I should hate you
Probably do, but I don't want to
All I do is forgive you
Is it normal that I do
Everyone I love is worried
All you ever done is hurt me
And it hurts me to love you
Is it normal that I do
(Am I not normal)
(Tell me I'm normal)
(Am I not normal)
(Just tell me I'm normal)
Is it normal to lie to
All my friends every night
Is it normal to try to
Tell myself I'm alright
It is normal to say
That I still want you to wait
And is it normal to stay
In case you come back someday
'Cause I should hate you
Probably do, but I don't want to
All I do is forgive you
Is it normal that I do
Everyone I love is worried
All you ever done is hurt me
And it hurts me to love you
Is it normal that I do
(Am I not normal)
(Tell me I'm normal)
(Am I not normal)
(Just tell me I'm normal)
(Am I not normal)
(Tell me I'm normal)
(Am I not normal)
(Just tell me I'm normal)