I know that you loved me a lot
I just never quite knew why that was
So afraid that I was not enough
That it turns out I was not enough
Look, I still drink sometimes when I'm down
But I quit smoking cigs, aren't you proud?
Look, I know that you don't give a shit
But I'm comforted
'Cause it still doesn't feel like you're gone
And my heart will not let me move on
Now I wish I had chosen my words
You were doing okay, how you were
Hope you're doing okay while I hurt
(Doing okay, doing okay while I hurt)
And I just want you to know
That the last time I drove you home
Was the last time I felt okay inside
And when you're not here in my car
I can't help but pretend that you are
But I'm not okay, and the world is dark without you
(I know that you loved me a lot)
(I just never quite knew why that was)
I know you've been going through shit
I just wish I could help you through it
When it rains, I still think of your face
On those dark, dark days
When you drove to my apartment after work
'Cause you always put my feelings first
When you cried and I just made it worse
Driving my own hearse
Off the cliff that I built for the view
So that I could sit up there with you
Damn, the water looks colder tonight
Will the water feel colder tonight?
Hope you're doing okay while I hurt
(Doing okay, doing okay)
And I just want you to know
That the last time I drove you home
Was the last time I felt okay inside
And when you're not here in my car
I can't help but pretend that you are
But I'm not okay, and the world is dark without you
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I'm still stuck on the first time you laid in my bed
With your legs wrapped around me, your skin on my skin
But I knew you would hurt me, 'cause I knew I'd want you to stay
I'm sorry I pushed you away
Well, I could've told you it's just for the best
If you leave in the morning or right after this
But I knew I would hurt you, 'cause I knew you'd want me to stay
Sometimes it's just better that way
I know that you loved me a lot