I've never been on medication But I think maybe I should I learned to balance my emotions But I don't feel understood I try to make these words sound beautiful So you'll listen to me And I can tell you that I'm just as lost As I will ever be I lied to you I lied to you Always told you that I wanted this But I just wanted you I lied to you I lied to you You lit my flame up like a candle But you burned me out too soon I'm always dreaming of vacations But I'm trapped inside my room Maybe I'll do some meditation To avoid impending doom I know that I'm too quiet Maybe it's because I've seen Too many things I'm not supposed to know About reality I lied to you I lied to you Always told you that I wanted this But I'm not in the mood I lied to you I lied to you I was a fool to ever think I'd find her universe in you Spend half my life inside the internet Half inside my shoes Keep wondering why shit don't feel better yet I guess I need more views Yeah, you can hide behind your keyboard I'm not doing this for you I know that most of you are chill But I'm a goddamn human too I lied to you I lied to you Always told you that I wanted this But I just wanted truth I lied to you I lied to you Made the mistake to diagnose This marigold before it bloomed