No one knows what I've feeling
It's like
I run from my past, I could never get right
When I'm happy, sad is one step closer
Will this last for, more than normal?
Yesterday I woke up thinking life was over
Overwhelming rush on things I should've spoken
Words I should have told you, right in the moment
You take away the parts of me that build emotion
I'm always angry most times hide it better
Maybe I should let go, and I'll sleep a little
What this means to you is not the same to me
I need this like the air we breathe this topic it is sentimental
And everydays a battle with myself I hate the sight of me
I'm ashamed to tell hate Is growing as I grow but silently
I'm full of insecurities and even though I try to be
Better than I was but there's not getting away that easy
Talking to myself again, it's bitter-sweet
Haven't seen the outside or made contact for over a week
It's getting worse and mentally exhausting eyes are feeling weak
Habits I'm not proud of but this drink it gives me some relief
You take and you take for the sake of your own worth
Does our happiness mean nothing to you
Why do I call, then hang up the minute I hear your voice
It gives comfort and make me sad but not by choice
I saw a picture of you lately, your aging well
My heart was aching like someone had torn it out
My problems are not yours and yours are far from mine
There's so much disconnect a stranger over time
What this does to us is numb so many sides
The older that we get, I feel it's out of line
What's been going on it's hard to understand it
I want to move on past it but It's harder I think
When you cannot forget what's happened
Tell me now!
Are you just done with us completely? I need to know I want an answer
I'm wanting all the years back you took from us!
Those tears weren't worth sadness Love was wasted on you,
Like the love you took and buried was it something
You had planned to shatter both our worlds so sudden
I could never let go of this
And now were grown you missed out on our life how could you!?
I'll never be alright cause I'm so scared to lose you
When we needed the most how come you never came
I always ended up alone so young and lost you left me ruined!
You take and you take for the sake of your own worth
Does our happiness mean nothing to you