Give me a second to... breathe
I'm sick of this feeling I mean it
Why don't you see it?
My heart has been hurting so bad it feels like it's not beating
Why don't you help me?
My thoughts tell me I'm never leaving
I'm here to stay
Why is it every time I think I'm better I'm back to this place that I hate
If I wanted the pain I would have stuck around another day
Sick of being in between angry and sad it won't rotate
To being happy that word is an overloaded misunderstood
Life that I won't be having almost like I'm set a bit upset
I give my all to someone then they turn around stab in the back
Then drag me while the knife is sticking out I'm on the ledge
And wonder why my trust when it's broken is not repaired
Forgiveness, use to give it now it's harder to come across
You could never mend the broken heart that I bring along
You say I'll grow to be a monster that's how you see me so
Why not live up to your expectations you grew me on
Why don't you get that you raised me I learned all my habits from you
You're confidently way beyond the point of change so point a finger
I'm disappointed I filled the void with bitter choices I was exploited
Petty talks
For a pathetic cause
No empathy for my thoughts
Trying to get me involved
My misery has a plot
To never let me belong
I pray to God that I'm wrong
If not forever I'm lost
Breathe
I'm sick of this feeling I mean it
Why don't you see it?
My heart has been hurting so bad it feels like it's not beating
Why don't you help me?
My thoughts tell me I'm never leaving
I'm here to stay
Why is it every time I think I'm better I'm back to this place that I hate
I feel like what I give is not enough oh
I think the worst against me so I might go
Thank you for the invite but I'll say no
Fight against my own thoughts till I hate both
Me and them are floating on the same boat
Gradually fills with water I drown hopes
Learn to not care when I should be careful
Standing there so still while my scares grow
In between then and now is a different phase
Look at that inner self loath that I get for free
Why is it gripping so hard it never wants to leave
I've got a database of reasons, not to be me
You want honest? I'll gladly share what's on my mind
For the shortest time, I walked a solid line
Then suddenly liquified you want me to feel loved
For you it doesn't apply? these feelings have been rough
I'm not even gonna lie I'm talking to you straight
No hiding behind the crying
I'm sitting at home day in day out and I'm in pain
I thought it would all change
I'm sorry my skies grey
But I've been up all week cause I struggle to
Breathe
I'm sick of this feeling I mean it
Why don't you see it?
My heart has been hurting so bad it feels like it's not beating
Why don't you help me?
My thoughts tell me I'm never leaving
I'm here to stay
Why is it every time I think I'm better I'm back to this place that I hate