It's funny how the little things can stake a claim
In memory and, cheat time to last a hundred years,
I swore that ide been strong enough to drop my heart
And pick it up, make the grate escape without a tear,
I'm so naive
Dear fans, family and the baby,
I've had a lot of thoughts running through my mind lately,
And the the painters use bright colors when ever they paint me,
But inside it's dark and these burdens are weighty,
And maybe being venerable in my position sounds crazy,
But im not writing this for the bloggers or the critics,
Your obsessed with me we get it,
I writing this for that one kid who sits alone in his room,
And even on a sunny day he sits alone in the gloom,
And he starts hearing voices in his
Head and he gets along with them too,
And pretty soon it's awful things he begins plotting to do,
I'll never forget when I got told fan
Of mine hung myself from a ceiling fan,
I can't imagine what you must have been feeling man,
But I get it cause I've lived it,
And if it wasn't for Jamie I to would have did it,
And they say you wrote me a letter asking me to meet you,
I don't think I ever opened it and
Maybe had I read it I could have reached you,
I swear I wasn't built for this,
Some people see my popularity and they would kill for this,
But I just might get killed for this,
Suicidal fans make me think I killed a kid,
But how am I supposed to reply to every message I getget?,
I get handed stacks of letters and I don't know what to do with it,
Im just a kid myself I'm telling you I'm through with this,
I don't think I'll ever get used to this,
It's been 4 years of popularity but I still feel new to this,
You think the pace I keep is crazy and I agree it's ludicrous,
But for some reason I can't find my way
Off this roller coaster I found my way on,
I've spent my whole life on stages and
Now I just wanna find level ground to lay on,
I'm so sick of the spotlight,
I could live in the dark and be fine with it,
But they keep handing me markers and stuff for me to sign with it,
And half the time I'm tempted to
Write someone else's name and not mine,
Cause maybe then this popularity can
Play games with their brain and not mine,
Cause what pushes me over the edge
Of stability is the years of lost time,
My baby girl is 6 months old and ive only been their for 3,
Maybe one day she will look back
And say "he's never been their for me",
And my worst fear is raising her the way I came up,
I wonder what she will feel in her
Stomach when ever they bring my name up,
I just hope she knows I took everything I
Was given and through it back at the dealer,
I grew up in a cult, broke free and came right back with a heater,
And your daddy became everything they said that he wouldn't,
And your daddy lived to do everything they tried but they couldn't,
And they talked about your daddy in their circles and their cliques,
And they write about your daddy's hurdles just to get clicks,
But mostly they just wanna be your
Daddy because inside their insecure,
But they can't be your daddy or stop
Your daddy and that offends them more,
But your daddy refused to let their gossip stop him,
And your daddy doesn't fair that their angry that their not him,
Your daddys has problems all on his own,
But thank the Lord daddy's God is still on his throne,
I don't need anybody or anyone I got here on my own,
Just me and Jesus and thats it,
People Frome my town tried to stop me but couldn't hack it,
I learned to fly from that trash so I
Guess their right when they call me a maggot,
But most of us are even though we think
We're butterflies birthed from a cocoon,
I'm 30 years old with a feeling I'm leaving earth pretty soon,
But I guess you have to do your best with what you've been given,
I wouldn't be here without my haters their attacks keep me driven,
Their stuck in puddles but I pack my bags on a mission,
Im alive and their dead so shout
Out to the small town dearly departed,
300 million views later and were just getting started,
I just keep carrying the weight of the world on each shoulder,
And maybe my baby will see all I did for her someday when she's older,
And if I'm not around then I hope somebody will let her know,
As for now I'm taking these insecurities and I'm letting them go.
(Letting go)