Just got my letter state
Were fuck shit free man
Finally off supervision
We're fuck shit free
I got two DUI's because my car smelled like weed
Five years of state probation
100 days for a violation
23 hour lockdown for 2 weeks
But you know
I'm still coming down Penn avenue smoking as usual
I remember speeding through every red light
When my mom called my work crying
Said somebody just climbed through the bedroom window
While she was by herself
And I knew it was from drug traffic I brought that caused her
To feel unsafe at home alone with an intruder
Used to love selling smoking and boosting
The whole lifestyle we got addicted to it
You don't know shit about where I come from
Or what caused me to go through what I've been through
So I got a list as long as Thomas Boulevard of true stories
And I could give a fuck if you Approve of them
You couldn't stomach this shit
If you went through what I did
You'd probably still be in Western Psych with the loonies
I think How come I knew a rapper
That bragged about serving Heroin to users in his Videos
Just to overdose after he eventually used it
We might believe in different things
But all of the same laws in the universe rule us
There's no such thing as something for nothing
That means if you lose faith in your music and do some shit for attention
Or ride another man's fame
You might catch a buzz but it won't last for long
You'll pay that cost and there's really Nothing else to it
I remember 2015 feeling like a shell of a man
Walking from South Side to Beltzhoover
Up to no good
Helen gave me the boot and the only place I had to choose from
Was a group home with 2 beds to a room
Or under the bridge on state probation
Man I really thought I just can't do this
Staring up at the roof
Thinking if I jump I hope I don't feel it
Man I hope Drew finds me lord knows
His mom and sister are more in tuned in to their Emotions
And the shit we put people through there's no excuses
I prayed that God would erase all the confusion
That causes me to do stupid things and It did
So now if I start shit then I know exactly what I'm doing
The only thing that being a Human ever proved to me
Is I don't want to be a fucking thing
Like ninety nine percent of the ones I grew up with