Ever since I punched a kid over crack he bought for complaining it's not enough I knew I had something inside if I don't tame that I might end up dying young That voice in my mind that tells me I'm off probation So If I catch a new charge it won't be that bad I'll be out the next night when my girl picks me up in my car with a blunt I made up my mind I'm not afraid of my lonely apartment after dark I realized I'm the only thing that haunts it lm far gone as they come All day long we used to be on different runs Taking planes paying doctors in Florida I had so many different plugs But by far Rite Aid pharmacist on Penn Avenue was my favorite one If they make my statue it's hopefully size 11 vans Add a couple of inches for the cap on my 6'1 figure And my beard out of bronze for the cold winter months All the painful shit I made it from is self inflicted but now I think I'm done It took years of hard work just to say I love me but really nobody gives a fuck So just keep to yourself and whatever you do keep your shoes on top your principles There's no love in the city the sound of burning medicine sizzles and crackles like kindle Balance heaven and hell inside of my head like a rope between two brindle pit bulls But I still keep my mood like a hit of indica after flipping over the cool side of the pillow Had a psychiatrist as a kid I've been popping pills since I was little When I was 12 I remember being on so much adderall I cleaned my bike for hours riding at 5am with my headphones on Back when I went to shaker heights middle school Got F's and D's on my report card But It'll be a cold day in hell before you take me for a fool I just never gave a fuck about what most teachers taught at all I'm from such a dark in place in the mind most people don't make it out that far You'll get Found with foam around the mouth a needle in your arm and your pupils fogged It's a sickness living in this drug epidemic Lucky we're even still standing at all