What didn't kill me Left me cold enough to live this lie Now I drift desensitized reality has Had it's way with this time Confidence now lost in comfort Of familiar habits I know it's destructive But I can not get past this barricade I boiled up inside too high I've got to pull out of numbing phase Hold down this fear Push back self doubt I'm most afraid that I will fall to failure So much to say can't get it out It's all a waste chaste Forced to indignant taste Self propelled rejection It's more than I can take (right now) So sick of hiding from what I can't face So sick of hiding from what I can't face I must get through this wall of insecurity The thought of rejection more than I can take and i've got to get out of this numb phase Set numb aside