I was wide awake when you left Count down the hours 'til I could tuck tail, I fled Down the stairs to my car, where I spent far too long Motionless and wondering where life went so wrong Not what I expected Fighting for love that we long knew was truly dead I cried the whole drive home Never felt so alone Floating and floating and floating and floating and I'd been For days, stood still, floating around in denial The "can't do this anymore" stayed with me for a while And I'd been Left gasping for air that I never thought I needed The winter chill felt so familiar I didn't need to see beyond I think I'd known it all along One day, I'll forgive myself With all these flaws or otherwise Soon, no doubt One day, one day And I'll forgive myself Until the cold crept in just like you do So much room to grow Re-evaluating what I'd done Is all I need to overcome ...a death I'll take time to find out If all the pain was worth it My chance to be better And could it last forever? The winter chill felt so familiar And I didn't need to see beyond I'd known it all along