There's a secret that I try to keep And even tho, it's eating me up I don't want anyone to know I guess I'm just ashamed, don't wanna show It's a part of me, I don't talk about Silent screams in the night, for nobody to hear And I can see me going, but I don't really know why And I can see me crawling, but I don't care anyway, like I used to do Maybe I just have too much ambition My expectations are all around me One step forward, two steps backward Contemplating the ceiling I know every details, so weird Why does my bed feel so damn comfy It's fucking 3PM And my head keeps on spinning how do I make it stop Cause it drives me crazy Thanks to this voice, telling me, it's okay, It's alright, everything gonna be fine But what If, nothing changes, As I grow old, as I grow sad, or mad