And I woke up
Feeling alone cause
You've been gone for the past month
I've been waking up late hardly making the pay that I need
Just to go on
(These past few months I've been bumming around)
Paying bills that I don't want
(I'm fucking jobless and I'm sick of it now)
And on top of that save up
(Counting on friends who can never be found)
For a piece of machinery older than me
(They never mattered much)
All the things I did (leading up to this)
They follow me (they were no different)
All the years I spent (they won't amount to shit)
It's taken so long
To force myself to face issues
I just can't fix them all overnight
I could be wrong
It"ll get better (I'm better) it's better
I got tired of missing the childhood stuff
(I woke up)
Like having the pressure of missing the bus
(I'm still messed up)
And it hurts to say now but we all must grow up
(It never ends)
We fuck up you're not right I'm not right
(It never ends)
Can we get over it
All the things I did (leading up to this)
They follow me (they were no different)
All the years I spent (they won't amount to shit)
It's taken so long
To force myself to face issues
I just can't fix them all overnight
I could be wrong
It"ll get better I'm better it's better
But I can't even scratch the surface on where to go
It hurts my brain too much to think for a long time so
I don't even care if I wake up at all
I don't even care if I wake up
I've been breaking my back for so long
I'm past that point with everything again
I've been breaking my back for so long
I keep breaking in half come on break me in half
(I've been breaking my back for so long)
Break me in half won't you break me just break me
(I've been breaking my back for so long)
I know it won't get better at all and I'm so fed up with it
So fuck you all just get away from me for now