Someone help
I can't just do this by myself
I was wrong, optimism doesn't solve my problems
There are monsters in my head
I know it, I saw them
In the blood pool, pulling up from the pavement
And positive thinking just isn't enough to calm them
I'll take my unmade bed and lie in it
I'll take my unmade head and hide in it
I know I say I'm fighting it
But I'm not getting anywhere
I convince myself this is progress
Cause I never used to get like this
I put myself in a place so dark
Now I'm scared to death of losing it
I don't want to be afraid anymore
I spent enough time drowning in my fears already
But I've never sunk this deep before
I don't want to be a letdown
I wanna be strong enough for everyone who needs me around
I can't seem to make this work
I stitch together all the pieces
But should I feel? My mouth still hurts
I wanna get out
I wanna feel better now
I'm starting to doubt if it'll ever get better
I guess this is my burden
I don't think that I can carry it
Cause all this weight hurts
And I'm just so scared of it
I don't want to be afraid anymore
I spent enough time drowning in my fears already
But I've never sunk this deep before
I don't want to be a letdown
I wanna be strong enough for everyone who needs me around
At a certain point I realized
That you have to put the work in
If you wanna keep from collapsing, under these conditions
So, started doing labor on myself
But nothing went away
And nothing really helped
Everyone suggested that I get some help
I already know that I need too
But it's hard to make that phone call
It's hard to accept the fact that there's something wrong with you
It doesn't get better
You just get better living with it
It doesn't get better
You just get better living with it
It doesn't get better
You just get better living with it
It doesn't get better
You just get better living with it
It doesn't get better
You just get better living with it
It doesn't get better
You just get better living with it