Think I'm still in love with you
But honestly
I can't even tell what to do
And honestly
I don't even know if it's love or I'm just lonely
Searching the sky
Still feels like you owe me
A million explanations for the things that you do
Cause I was healing fine
Til you showed up back in my life
Old swings but a bottle of new hope
Feels like you bottled up everything I wrote
Why you get to be happy
But I'm still feeling low
Feeling weak bringing you up to my friends
They'll never know
I'm terrified to tell em
Bout the tension in my soul
That I wanna run to your window
Throw rocks and grab hold
And maybe never let go
But I remember ice
Down low
Winter snow
Arctic in my heart
Tryna feel it in my soul
Worlds apart is pretty cold
Tomorrow finna be a year since you disappeared
You sent a text today
Happy belated
Wishing me well for the holidays
Damn
I've been in a daze
Maybe by verse two
You'll runaway
But maybe I should focus on a better me
You not gonna fill the holes where I fight anxiety
I just have a hard time believing
If it's meant to be
Then it'll be
I'm not one to wait
I'm one to chase and achieve
Careers goals and dreams
Everything in my head that I see
So Imma sit back
And not hit you up
And focus on using this energy in my lungs
To create better days
Chase these runways
Chasing new waists
Chasing new fans in my state
Chasing everything I've wanted
Since I was 19
So just be
Just breathe
Yeah
So just be
Just breathe
Yeah
So just be
Just breathe
Yeah
So just be
Just breathe
Yeah
So just be
Just breathe
Yeah