My friends always tell me I get carried away
Sometimes I spit when I talk 'cause I have so much to say
They don't seem to hear me, but I guess it's okay
It's not their fault my mind is working overtime with no pay
They always say the same thing and it's starting to get old
That my mind can't get sick, that it can't catch a cold
I scratch and I pick, my insecurities poke,
My fears, my anxiety, a voice that provokes
Take a walk, clear your head, breath in, count to ten
'Cause on the first page of life written in red
You'll never make it here if you don't learn how to bend
Don't speak unless you're spoken to, little girl
Someday you will find your place in the world
But ladies don't get dirty
Someday you'll learn to fill the empty space with empty faith
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Everyday feels like a battle and I always get hurt
I was frequently told violence was never the answer
But life doesn't abide by the rules of a child
I don't know how to fight, only taught how to surrender
There is a certain kind of darkness that does the reaping
It usually takes you right before you are sleeping
Is it the crack in the door that it finds a way to creep in
Or the crack in your brain that wants you to drop dead
I don't remember what it's like to see with clear vision
I awake every morning like the dead has arisen
I don't have to think this body of mine is a prison
You don't control me, I just got to find my lights switch
But the more that I look, the further it gets
You're the only thing about me that needs to be fixed
'Cause on the first page of life written in fine print
Stop looking for light, live it instead
Don't speak unless you're spoken to, little girl
Someday you will find your place in the world
But ladies don't get dirty
Someday you'll learn to fill the empty space with empty faith
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My mind is a mess, but I love it nonetheless
They told me to hush, but my words are all that's left
So on the last page of life written in gold
Don't waste it, always doing what you're told