Someone says a joke and it's funny so I laugh But I didn't feel it My ex hit me up so I cried but I didn't mean it And I think that I kinda like this not really feeling Antis got me some type of way I'm floating up in space Nobody's real this way I might be not okay But it doesn't feel that way when I medicate Now, it's been a while since I tried To let out all the pain through bleeding Think this is a first, a full night of me truly sleeping Yeah, I miss the highs, but I'm scared to feel all my feelings Antis got to go some day I'm floating up in space Nobody's real this way I might be not okay But it doesn't feel that way when I medicate I'm hoping with therapy My mind will stop hating me I might be fine one day But it doesn't feel that way when I medicate It doesn't feel that way It doesn't feel that way It doesn't feel that way It doesn't feel that way I'm floating up in space Nobody's real this way I might be not okay But it doesn't feel that way when I medicate I'm hopin' with therapy My mind will stop hating me I might be fine one day But it doesn't feel that way when I medicate