It eats at me like a fucking disease
This anxiety strikes my peace
I feel I can't get out, with all these expectations of me
Don't take a second for granted
That's what's said
No way around it, I can't help how I feel
Holding onto what is real
But what is fucking real
Let me out of this hole I'd rather not drag you all along
Crying for help, crying for the ones I love
I'm privileged i have no reason to be sad
But again you don't know what goes on in my head
Once the flood begins the water runs
The company around starts to feel like none
I'm alone
Agony leads to violent thoughts, Being a burden makes me not call
It's tough to be a man with a gun in Your hand
Be strong
I'm strong but broken
I'm smart but lost
Tough to show teeth but i still do
You don't know what i'm going through
Don't feel sorry
Don't feel sorry for me
I just want to feel okay
As i rot, you think not
Like a baby in a hot car
You'll never go far