I'm tryna make, like, a fucking audio journal
Of all the bullshit that's going on in my head
All I really wanted
Was someone who would love me
Was someone who would fuck me
Was someone who just want me
Thought I found one, but
Turned out I was wrong, huh?
Like a thousand times now
But I get so attached to them
I give all myself away
I don't mind it, that's my way
I just want someone to stay
And tell me that I'm okay
But no one could handle it
Maybe I'm too much for them?
Maybe I'm not one of them?
Maybe I won't love again?
Maybe I'm not loveable?
Maybe I'm just trouble, huh?
Toxic tendencies show up
When I feel my feelings cut
All the shit I aint heal from
Surfaces and I fuck up
Bottled up, it will explode
Castles coming crashing down
No one here to hear the sound
Silent cries, my throat closed up
Know no one will give a fuck
If I just stop and give it up
So maybe I'll just quit it all
And reach for bliss by ending it
I know this shit is getting old
But I can't let these feelings go
Cause nothing changed, I tried so hard
But I don't think they see at all
And I can't blame the world no more
There's something I'm not getting, huh?
All I really wanted
Was someone who would love me
Was someone who would fuck me
Was someone who just want me
Thought I found one, but
Turned out I was wrong, huh?
Like a thousand times now
But I get so attached to them