I built an effigy from willow trees that grew in my backyard And then I trimmed and polished endlessly, endowed it with my heart And then the wandering mind lost subtlety Alarm bells breathe soliloquys And all of it was done to me at once And on the day that I learned what you were was not what I had built I saw the flame that had destroyed the earth, reflected in my guilt Because the statue, hollow and serene Gave more to me than anything And all of it would only happen once So I'll addict myself to throwing up and television screens And we'll convince ourselves that growing up Will justify the means The shade you pick, encephalic Grayed out the worst I can remember All is well but something was surrendered And I could wear the whole thing down But are you sure you don't find pieces you resemble From the features that you outlined in chalk? And I could tear the core right out But I don't know what's withering beneath the surface Shave the sinew, grieve the purpose And rot