I have been so numb to the human Condition, begging, pleading covered in scars, Drawn to your spite, I wish I could take it all back And leave the past behind Drive the nails as hard in as you can, Make me see the visions that you have, Sold my soul To you to feel nothing left at all I feel your vibrance flow through the wind, The holes in my hand I can feel you within Fulfilled with memories that should not be spoken of, Fulfilled with abhor thoughts that will never see the light of day Blackened pain within my eyes, Hatred words softly spoken to me, My apathy is taking a toll on this life that has been handed to me I walk in circles through yiur vicious transparent ycles of self Loathe that will never fade away until I take my own life in the hands of tyrant I've lost control of what goes in my head, Sometimes you make me wish I was dead, end this suffering, My pain will be self inflicted like a schizophrenic with a blade Your sickening smile stares right through me, The ends lies within your eyes that will drown me and consume me Force fed apathy