Yeah, feeling so alone again
Feeling like I'm falling in a hole again
Was meant to be the best year of my life
Married to the pain, that's my trouble and strife
From when I was yute, I used to struggle at night
Different whips pulling up all night
Mama said "It's all right"
"Go back to bed, baby boy, sleep tight"
I didn't know at the time
I knew smell of a pipe, right
I've been around drugs for my whole life
Light, dark brown pills, crow white
I've seen my mother fittin' lookin' snow white
Alcohol dependency is no lie
In school, was guess who when it's home time
Who's collecting me today? I shoulda known, right?
Just saying that I feel ungrateful in my own eyes
'Cause I love fucking people with my whole heart
My whole mind
So try and understand why I'm speaking up
'Cause all these fucking feelings, bro, they eat me up
I've never had a person that's received my love
That's seems to understand me and the way I think
That's why I feel to give up my and release my love
'Cause I been fightin' with these demons way before we linked
Home is where the heart is, Scotty, beam me up
Man, I'm going through changes, that's the way it is
And things will never be the same, somethin' I've gotta admit
My patience growing thin like the roach on my spliff
Man, I'm better off alone I'm convinced
Maybe it's them, maybe it's me, what's the diff'? Yo
Said I'm down knee-deep in this shit
Had a dream of me and Mumzy up and leaving the bits
One ticket straight out the abyss
I can't just keep concealing and just pleading the fifth
I need the assist
But it's funny tho because
When, like, when, when we moved into that nice flat
Yeah, me and my mum
That's when things sort of went out of control
'Cause my mum, my mum, my mum always had problems, like
Yo, I used to wish I had it better like those rich folk
But fuck it, I stay humble and I stay grateful
My father is a soldier, my mum was an angel
My grandfather taught me how to keep my mind stable
Lost his daughter and I feel it for him honestly
And mum if you can hear me, no apologies, please
'Cause there ain't nothin' to be sorry about
'Cause the world, it done you wrong
But I won't let it get ahold of me
Hopefully, you're out there watching over me
Hopefully, you notice me
Hopefully, you know that you're the goat to me
Hopefully, you're no longer lonely
'Cause supposedly when somebody goes and leaves
It means their souls at peace
And I can't hold my peace
I gotta say mine
Never really speak on a matter 'til I spay rhymes
That's just me
Got a lot on my plate but I stay shining
Procrastinating in my boxers while I waste time
I know life got a deeper meaning but I hate mine
Sometimes
Really I'm just tryna work the world out and it ain't right
You can't see my hiding in plain sight
Clown mask covering my face, no daylight
But I ain't a killer, I'm just hiding the truth
Hiding my face
But, pussy, I ain't hiding from you
I'm hiding from me
I can see the lies in the room
I've cried and I've pleaded
Needed to try find an excuse, couldn't fine me a reason
Fighting for my life every year
I fight through the seasons
If you thinking you fighting with me
I might make it even
Even if I die, best believe, my life had a reason
Look me in my eyes when I speak
Pussy
And I (I'm)
Tryna find my way out of here
No more pain (Pain)
Bury me deep down
Deep down, I'm drowned
And I (I'm)
Tryna find my way out of here
No more pain (Pain)
Bury me deep down
Deep down, I'm drowned, like