How can you breathe so easy with your head in the clouds
How are your legs not shaking from that balancing act
My sincerest of apologies
But your inconsistencies are impossible to hide
You're the queen but you don't seem to be
One to show your scars off in the slightest
When I look at you I see a ghost of shame Insisting on pain
When you don't know what you've done wrong
It's three AM when the monsters wake
I wish I knew how to chase them away
I'll be here for as long as it takes
But I'm running low on what words to say
It's times like these that sleep never finds me
I'm up all night wondering
If you're as strong as you seem or if you're scared like me
Are you just scared like me?
I've become so afraid
That all of your problems are out of my reach
You never really needed me at all
I feel like I failed us both
I've spent days trying to decide
Which knife I should use to lobotomize
The rotting tumors inside my brain
They're always whispering, "You're not okay."
Movies on repeat of where I've been
There's mold growing under my hardened skin
It pulls my strings, I'm a marionette
It won't die unless I die with it
I'm ashamed that I
Can't help but be affected by the path you chose
Turns out its all my fault
That you made so many mistakes
This is all the consequence
Of running away
It brought you so much pain
I'm so sorry for everything