Yo It's not easy being me for a start Always dealing with these secrets that I keep in my heart Feeling steeped in my own demons that are feeding my art Deep in need of self-esteem but still believe that I'm smart To tease them apart, would mean to keep my ego at bay Flimsy like a sheet of paint I feel it peeling away I'd rather lie than try to put this side of me on display So I'm staying high and dry from seeing any people today Sometimes I shrink into myself, taking a dive Into the depths of depression and question why I'm alive And other times I think that I'm the best to ever exist And wonder why the next messiah's taking everyone's shit They say take care of yourself or you'll burn out No project and no obstacle's too hellish to surmount But first you gotta get some self care, put your needs first Now I'm seeking some suggestions guess I'll do some research So now I'm doing some self care Success has been elusive when pursuing it elsewhere Don't wanna be deluded, I'm improving my welfare So tell me what to do if I were looking for self care Hell yeah So now I'm doing some self care Success has been elusive when pursuing it elsewhere Don't wanna be deluded, I'm improving my welfare So tell me what to do if I were looking for self care Hell yeah You out doin research, Sis But I think there's a step that we mighta missed Do you got a book that you wanna start readin? A favorite blend of tea that you're into drinkin? What about a nice bubble bath? So hoes outta pocket don't incur your wrath Cuz there's always gonna be some bitch who rain on your parade You out gettin bags while they ain't gettin paid List all them accolades you got a long resume I know you're down to try that out - when do you hesitate? Stroll around the city heard she's pretty with these Christmas lights Stayin in is dope too, appreciate them nights You jet set hustlin - work can wait Save for another day that full fuckin plate Know your worth, this your terf, gotta go self-serve Start with a deep breath - calm that nerve So now I'm doing some self care Success has been elusive when pursuing it elsewhere Don't wanna be deluded, I'm improving my welfare So tell me what to do if I were looking for self care Hell yeah So now I'm doing some self care Success has been elusive when pursuing it elsewhere Don't wanna be deluded, I'm improving my welfare So tell me what to do if I were looking for self care Hell yeah You might see me rolling on a paperchase and say How do you maintain in a world so tasteless WAIT I have to correct them, you see these claims are baseless mane I am MAD FUCKING STRESSED on a daily basis, dang I do have a few rules, for fools that cross lines Swiftly get a broke disk down in their damn spine Since the cancer came i been slightly outta my mind Stab a motherfuck out of line that waste my time On any random day that I don't feel like i need to go into the office I call every manager and tell them they can suck two dicks Neither mine. I'm drunk before they pick up the phone Self medicating is the only therapy i know That's how it goes though from womb to tomb now No smile on my face, self care is a permanent scowl Blowing off appointments I got a lot on my plate And honestly I have to admit it's pretty great So now I'm doing some self care Success has been elusive when pursuing it elsewhere Don't wanna be deluded, I'm improving my welfare So tell me what to do if I were looking for self care Hell yeah So now I'm doing some self care Success has been elusive when pursuing it elsewhere Don't wanna be deluded, I'm improving my welfare So tell me what to do if I were looking for self care Hell yeah