I haven't felt the same since you died But still I say I'm doing fine And maybe it's coincidental Why do I feel so temperamental I put on a brave face And pretend I'm okay I'm wearing a mask But beneath I'm afraid But under the pressure I bend and I break I think back and it feels like a dream The room and the paintings The boat on the stream Your voice and your smile On repeat in my brain And I know you're now in a better place At least you're no longer in pain As weeks to turn months The questions revealing Did I know you enough To justify how I'm feeling I didn't know you that well But it hurts now you're gone Did I know you enough To write your name in a song? I didn't know you that well But it hurts now you're gone Did I know you enough To write your name in a song? Is it all just a front? Of how I've taught myself A way of dealing with grief And death itself And death itself I think back and it feels like a dream The room and the paintings The boat on the stream Your voice and your smile On repeat in my brain And I know you're now in a better place At least you're no longer in pain I wrote this for you Even though you'll never see I wish I could explain Your impact on me Mum, I love you And I hope you're okay I tried to find the words But didn't know what to say Mum, I love you And I hope you're okay I wish I could take all of the pain away