I was caught up in the same routine of grinding out the day Tearing my flesh apart Trying to fight the urge to self-destruct Where did the light go? A daily sacrifice of my body and my mind To get where I want to be We're all in this together to make something of this life I won't shed another drop of blood for you And I won't justify my reasons I'm not like you Coerced into patterns of slavery Conceded by meaningless gain I can't remember what its like to love I'm not as patient as I used to be As I once was Don't feel connected to anyone anymore And I won't fake this anymore Is there still something good in me? I feel demonic on the best of days We shy away from our deepest desire When there's no spark of resolution in sight So I'll medicate myself until I fall asleep Tell me you don't do the same Waking up to every sunrise and living on repeat Is a deathly reaction to fear So while you waste away your life I'm after mine This is not the life that I set up to live And I can't even escape myself I'm holding on but still I'm losing my grip on this There's nothing left in me that you would want a fragment of I'll stay the clenching hands that tighten around your throat I've sunken low, but I'm ascending back to the surface