Lacerating reason Defy logic Disguise the answers I am seeking Underneath my skin It boils up inside No empathy Just fucking null Murmurs seep through the sullen air Inducing paranoia enraged by my own despair I try to escape the hate This engulfing malignance submerging me within my fate These inexcusable manifestations of shame Solidifying an identity falsely portrayed Exposed Falling short of expectations Why am I always the last to fucking know This clenched fist snuffs all rationality Sowing the seeds of my relentlеss reality Forever taunting and tainting this duality Mirrors painting portraits of chirality Thе monster I tried to hide clear for all to see Despondency tortures me Despondency tortures me Endlessly carving its face corrupting me null Carve in my name, belong to me Bury the rest to rid me of sin I am laid to rest Decimate the fallen ones Bound to death as I suffer the consequence I know you're there Gutting me with punishment I feel your hand Guiding me to pestilence What am I supposed to be Because it can't be the man I've become Trapped by twisted memories Of a child who tried to overcome Every day another sentence I face A myriad of judgements to erase As my will slowly decays Will I ever Fix what's broken