Even in Eden, I can't deviate from indecision
How many times must I try to get right with God
Before he gives up on my condition?
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Do promises made in adolescence hold weight?
Does my fear of never seeing you dictate my fate?
I want to believe in forever
But eternity isn't long enough when it comes to you
Heaven is the love I felt in your presence
Heaven is the solace I find in the gift of remembrance
Am I consecrated, despite how often I've contemplated?
If there's a place where the streets are gold
Where we dine from chalices adorned with every precious stone
I don't want to go without you
But if I stay, what will you do?
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I don't know why I'm alive
But I'm alive, looking for a sign
Heaven is the love I felt in your presence
Heaven is the solace I find in the gift of remembrance
Am I consecrated, despite how often I've contemplated?
Are you that bluebird greeting me on my parent's deck
Or is it pathetic that I'm holding out for hope of a message?
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Am I consecrated, despite how often I've contemplated?
I don't want the sonnets I've wrote
Or the pieces composed to let the love you left be in vain
But the burning bush is blinding, despite how often it rains
Heaven is the love I felt in your presence
Heaven is the solace I find in the gift of remembrance
Am I consecrated, despite how often I've contemplated?
You'd want me to figure this out
I wanna keep my eyes open
Even if I don't know where I'm going
Only death is certain
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So will I be worthy of a requiem once I'm embalmed?
Am I deserving of reprieve, or rosaries, stigmata and psalms?