I kind of feel like I'm caught in a loop,
Living everyday just like deja vu.
I can't even tell if I'm spiralling down
Or if I took the jump and finally hit the ground.
Am I rolling in the grave? Tossing and turning in this endless sleep,
Waiting for someone to wake me up,
Dead and seeing through this construct that I've built in my mind,
Eternally drifting in time,
None of this makes sense to me anymore,
I'm playing both sides in the endless war in my mind.
So I tear at my skin and dig to my heart
Just to let my soul out of the dark,
For a minute just to feel like I'm human,
Oh God, I'm so broken.
I need to wake up,
I can't deal with this existential nightmare anymore,
I can't live in this dream, the cracks are too vivid,
Just too extreme.
I stared into the abyss and fell in love with the nothingness.
I feel like I'm Jesus, I feel like I'm a saint,
Time travelling, absent, just negative space,
All these warning signs that I'm going insane,
I'm going in -
With each breath I take, my lungs collapse and come alive again,
Eternally resurrecting this existential and irrational action.
Serrated and torn, skin pulled tight and worn,
Like a shape-shifting masquerade in an endlessly self-harming state
Gods tongue is twitching again
So fragmented i'm barely a man
For i was lost before i even could stand
Understand i've tried my best to make these amends
Never ending
Oh God, please pull me out -
I kind of feel like I'm caught in a loop,
Living everyday just like deja vu.
I kind of feel like I'm caught in a loop,
Living everyday just like deja vu.