A Growing understanding Summers fade into the darkest fall My brief thoughtless youth Slowly walked off - no more Regrets Like the Cotard's syndrome Beauty if life spilled out of me After all those years So faithful - to you I'm Drownin' In This Pain How did this happen I mean - life seems to be so wrong Which is the meaning - when you feel all hope is gone How did this happen? You turned your gaze away from me That Howling Silence that still echoes in my head Falling behind the events horizon Of the black hole that replaced my painful heart There is no way to retrace my footsteps I feel so empty inside - anesthetized